From Confusion to Clarity: My Journey Through Failures, Dreams, and Self-Discovery

Introduction:

I’ve always had big dreams, but I rarely got anything right — at least, that’s what I used to believe. From failing in studies, switching interests, and making impulsive decisions, to slowly understanding myself and the world around me — this is my story. A messy one, but also full of lessons.

1. College Days: A Time of Escapism

In college, I barely touched my books. I didn’t like studying. Anime and distractions took most of my time. I knew I wasn’t on the right path, but I didn’t know how to change.

2. My Internship: Success Without Pressure

I surprised myself during my hotel internship. In housekeeping and F&B, I performed really well. Why? Probably because there were no high expectations.

But things turned when I entered the kitchen department. I was placed in the bakery, and I couldn’t coordinate with a junior chef. I ended up yelling at him, and he threatened me. I walked out, scared and angry. I didn’t even try to shift to another kitchen section. I just gave up and went back to housekeeping.

From that point, I lost momentum.

3. The ITC Phase and Distraction

After college, I joined ITC Udaipur. I even got a bike from home, which gave me the freedom to meet old friends. Some of them were doing well, and I started comparing myself. I got distracted. I wasn’t doing great at work and eventually left the job without informing anyone. I got blacklisted. But deep down, I already knew — the hotel industry wasn’t for me.

4. Ego, Exams, and a New Clarity

Frustrated, I turned to CAT exam preparation — driven partly by ego. My brother and sister said I wasn’t good at anything, especially not at studies. I studied hard for three months. I didn’t get great marks, but something strange happened — I found mental clarity.

I thought, If CAT prep can give me this much clarity, maybe an IIM can give me more. So, I kept preparing. But even after giving XAT, the result wasn’t great. I gave up on exams and turned toward business.

5. Entering the Business World — and Stock Market

While working in my family’s granite business, I started studying the stock market. I was preparing for CAT at that time too. I became deeply focused on one share — Renuka Sugar Industries. I tracked it for months, and after the budget, I had a feeling it would go up.

I invested and earned a 15–20% return.

That one win gave me confidence. I thought I could do more. I started intraday trading, margin trading — and lost money. A good amount.

That’s when I decided: stop chasing shortcuts. Invest in yourself instead.

6. Starting a Blog: From Vision to Identity

That realization led me to create a blog: BizGeoAI.com — where I wrote about AI, geopolitics, and how small businesses could use new technologies to grow.

But my friend, who started it with me, left after a few blogs. I was alone again.

Eventually, I shifted to Yuvraj Journal — my personal platform where I could also write about my own journey and lessons. I published a few blogs, then stopped for a while. That became a pattern — start something, pause, doubt myself.

I also tried digital marketing, YouTube, and more. But when I didn’t get fast results, I gave up. And honestly, it’s not because I wasn’t good — it’s because I wasn’t consistent.

7. What I Realized — The Real Shift

The biggest thing I’ve gained isn’t success — it’s structure in thinking. I now think more clearly, I understand my mistakes better, and I reflect deeply on my actions.

If I compare the old version of me to who I am now, the difference is huge.
Not because I’ve become rich or famous.
But because I’ve become aware.

8. Where I Am Now

I’m running a business. I still feel confused some days. I’ve had my fights, failures, and breakdowns. I’m not a people-person by nature, and I often feel like I’m in the wrong industry. But I’m trying. I’m growing.

I’m no longer obsessed with proving people wrong. I’m just trying to understand myself — and build a life that feels meaningful to me.

Conclusion:

This is not a perfect story. It’s a real one. Full of stops, starts, and stumbles.
If you relate to it, here’s my message to you:

You don’t have to be perfect to move forward. You just have to keep learning, failing, adjusting — and trying again.

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